Okay, it's not as dramatic as it sounds. Well, maybe.
I couldn't find a bobby pin in my vanity drawer.
I had my hair cut last Thursday. Mrs. Kay came to sit with the kids while I had a nice, quiet hour in a busy, loud salon getting my hair done.
For the 1st time in probably 20 years, I had my stylist cut bangs.
She told me that it would take a few days to get used to them.
It's been a few days.
They.Are.Driving.Me.Crazy.
So I looked for a bobby pin.
On a normal day I can count at least a half dozen at the bottom of my top drawer.
Today I couldn't find one. I'm sure it had to do with the utter chaos going on in the 1st, 2nd AND 3rd drawers of my vanity.
Since all of my hair products are in my 1st drawer AND I couldn't find one, I said, "God, if you help me find a bobby pin, I swear I'll clean these drawers out."
I mean, it came out before I could stop myself. Just like that. Just like I thought if He cared if I had clean drawers or not.
I don't like to bargain with God. Although, I know I've done it before:
God, If you take this migraine away, I'll pray more often.
God, If you help me get over this 24 hour stomach virus in 2, I'll read my Bible more often.
God, If you yada, yada, yada, I'll yada, yada, yada....
I don't think that He hears my reply and says, "What the heck, it's a good deal to go with - she needs to clean her drawers anyway" and POOF, He sends me a bobby pin.
I really had to repent. I know to some that sounds extreme. I know that God knows my heart. Maybe that is why I felt so convicted. I was brought back to remembrance all of the bargaining I've done with God and how much of my end of the bargain I didn't keep.
But how good is God? He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. His mercies are new and fresh every morning. His love for me and you knows absolutely no bounds. He will always be a heart's cry away. I am encouraged by my Savior's love more today than yesterday.
It makes me want to spend more time in prayer with Him.
It makes me want to be in His Word more. I needed this bargain to bring me back to reality.
The reality is that I don't need to bargain. I don't need to plead. My God is here and his grace is sufficient for me.
Consequently, I found a bobby pin.
In the 2nd drawer.
In my manicure bag.
Gotta go clean out my vanity drawers.
1 comment:
This is great! My priest once told me in confession that being a mother was a prayer. Every act of service for your family is the same kind of service Jesus did. Somehow, although comforting, it's not enough for me. I want to spend more time with God too. That time makes me a better wife and a better mother. I understand where you are coming from. And btw, I've been on a decluttering frenzy. So be encouraged, it's nice being able to find everything you're looking for.
My friend Heidi and I are amazed at how it seems that God cares for the smallest things, or rather that God cares that we care about them. Lots of love, Rachel
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